what if i never figure it out?

(and other fun thoughts i have at 2 AM)

I haven’t been sleeping well.

For the past few weeks, I’ve been waking up at 2 AM, sometimes 3 AM, just… awake. At first, I thought maybe it was perimenopause. Maybe it’s hormones. Maybe it’s the fact that my country is in the middle of an existential crisis! And, sure, that could be allll true.